Hi Kalkin, a warm welcome to the YATU forum! Don’t worry, you posted the topic in the right subforum, it is here we invite and discuss general questions as well as the preface of the book.
I’m sure Deepak will respond soon, but in the meantime, may I ask you… you say that you do not experience thoughts and emotions in meditation. Regardless… why are you discontent with your meditation? You seem to be searching for something in an active way. But what we all seek, awareness itself, becomes apparent naturally as we learn to relax and let go of expectations and preconceived notions. In my experience, staying with one’s own awareness in the silence of meditation is a process which ripens over time. In the beginning, having no thoughts or emotions feels empty and meaningless, but in time, that state begins to reveal its beauty and depth.
How does this resonate with you?