One day I was wondering, what will happen if I merge with God or the universal consciousness – as you all refer to as.
Immediately, I realised No Im not sure I want to , if I do , how would I experience what I am able to now? The need to exist and experience was strongly felt.
It was my realisation of my attachment to my desires, the desire to experience something that is actually stopping me from being one with Him, the desires were really strong. That, is Ego, I came to believe.