The wall I guess is always having to fight my mood and fear of the future with its uncertainty. Trust is a big issue and feeling secure. These are trauma related and I know that.
So having to deal with day to day life down here is not fun. When I feel like I have helped someone or actually am enjoying a moment and not in the feelings and being triggered stuff, it is easier.
There are no easy answers and I am learning to take a day at a time.
This body has a lot of issues and so it is also more comfortable not to be in it. But the moments of peace are few. I guess the key to the gate is to trust and not expect myself to be perfect. I would never expect so much from someone else, LOL!
Now the usual thing I feel like I have to say. I’ll be alright. Dealing with it.