Thank you also for your post. For someone like me who consider myself very new to this journey, it’s both comforting and reassuring to see others confronting similar challenges.
Like you I ask myself quite frequently daily “Am I Aware” and the reason why I have to do so is because I catch myself lost in my conditioned thoughts frequently. It’s interesting how far the conditioned mind will go to maintain control. Latest trick, pretend to be helping me to enlightenment. Another ‘goal’ in the mind created psychological time that is trying to prevent me from being present in the eternal Now.
Being lost in thought happens with enough frequency that I sometimes feel I have a long way to go, but I do know I am making some progress. That fact that I quickly become aware when I’m taken over by thoughts I guess is proof of that and I am aware of gaps of no mind that also happens with increasing frequency.
Being among you all really helps.
I will continue to try.