07/20/2017 at 5:32 pm #7035
Deepak ChopraModerator60 votes@deepakchopra
The question was asked by @susan, member of our YATU forum. Thank you Susan!
“I would like to ask what to do about feeling “homesick”, not feeling like you belong in this world, wanting to return to G-d and the Angels and making peace with the density of this world and that my idealistic visionary way of seeing is not everyone’s. I have moments of feeling home when I feel so connected to them and I feel the overwhelming love and acceptance of them.
Then I have to return to the mundane world and those who don’t see or understand me. I try to keep my thinking on as high a vibration as I can with many forms of Holistic and Spiritual practices but because I deal with Depression and Complex PTSD it is hard sometimes to do this. It is sometimes more of an Existential Depression feeling like I am not doing my job here to the best of my ability, a seeking meaning and peace in all that has happened so that I can continue to ascend and be the teacher I am here to be, trying to remember to separate from the Ego and to know others have free will to choose what they want to experience.
I think part of it is trying too hard to be perfect and knowing I can’t because I am in a Human body. I can’t make others see me as I am or listen to the messages that I am here to send about Love and Light and Peace and Cooperation with all beings. That sounds egotistical but it isn’t about ME, it is about the message, I am only the vehicle, the Emissary (some lady once said I was an Emissary and was getting too caught up in the Human Condition and forgetting my job as messenger and so got depressed and Homesick. She was so right! I know everyone is where they are in their development but I want them to see the truth and let in the Light and maybe the wanting so much for everyone to be who they can be is Ego impatience). I am learning to just relay the messages and let it be.
I used to work as a Special Ed teacher and now I do healing work and sometimes I feel like I am surrounded by Special Ed students and have to be patient, LOL! I know a lot of this is Ego and just learning to be comfortable in the Human body with imperfection though the memory of Home and love is so strong, it’s hard to be here. I really think a lot of this is just trying to make peace with being in a body instead of just free spirit. I have not had an issue with remembering I am spirit, I have had more trouble with being in a body in a dense world.
As always, I welcome your comments! Please keep sending in your questions, making sure you use @question in your text!
07/20/2017 at 11:42 pm #7043
Thank you so much Dr. Chopra! You are absolutely right and I have been trying to remind myself that this is what it is because I knew it but I forget and need to be reminded it is only The Dark Night Of The Soul. I have been reading your books for years, highly respect you and appreciate your taking the time to answer. I am trying to do the things that you suggested and I just get too critical of myself and my progress although in reality I am much better then many years ago. I am just in a lot of transition in my life now and learning to Let Go.
I worked for decades as a Mental Health Therapist with other people’s trauma. Due to several health issues I can’t anymore so it is a large transition.
G-d Bless you!
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